Sunday, November 1, 2009

Contemplation and Flashbacks

I keep flashing back to my crash, and I'm now pretty sure that I may have gotten slightly disoriented just prior to the crash, having been swimming for an hour and jumping onto my bike. It certainly doesn't take long to lose control of a bike.

So, taking stock of my injuries, I can feel the left shoulder healing. I took off a piece at the end of the clavicle, but I don't know how important it is:). I'll have to wait until I get home to see someone and get some opinions. In the meantime, I can't use the shoulder, although I'm finally starting to get used to being able to use my left hand (i.e. typing this blog) without lifting my shoulder. My left hip is another story. At least I can walk, although it is slow, I think I move at about 2mph! It still hurts, and I'm having good days a bad days. Can't tell if it's a muscle or the bone that was chipped that hurts, I'll have to wait until I get home to have my fearless massage therapist figure it out:)!

It's taking a little work to "enjoy" a vacation with the injuries, but I have lots of time to sit ponder:). My triathlon future is certainly still out there, but the timing of it may have to pend seeing an orthopedist when I return. That said, the one thing that I thought about a lot while on the bike and thereafter was that I don't have anything left to "prove" to myself when it comes to triathlon, or anything else for that matter. I've been trying to understand my drive with tri's, and it clearly involves trying to "prove" that I can be a successful athlete. I think that I really need to work on just enjoying the activities, and as my coach always says I'm a better trainer than racer, that may not be too difficult to achieve.

The injury has taught me to slow down! I'm always moving at 100mph, so I think that this is a good thing.

Well, my shoulder is saying it's time to stop typing:)


wassben said...

It sounds like you are not in a lot of pain. Then again you always tend to minimize whatever pain you do have. You're like the old man, you've got things to do, places to see, you don't have time to dwell on your well being. I get it.

Something tells me that you'll be back doing at least one more triatelon.

I just got back from a Nephrology conference trade show in San Diego. Once again I was the star of the conference.

It won't be long before we will see you in Colorado. Let's hope you can say that what happened was a "blessing in disguise."

talk to you later.


Fern said...

Hope you will be in good shape so you can do Oceanside....Glad to have your blogs so I can keep up with your slow recovery...Can't wait to see you in Denver. Love You

Fern said...

You and Marc "crash victims"

Elizabeth said...

I am so sorry to hear things went the way they did. But, from my experience I know everything happens for a reason if we just open our minds and hearts to hear what it is. We will definitely get to working on fixing you when you get back. Would be a good idea to have the hip MRI'd as well so we know exactly what we are dealing with. See you soon, and thanks for the plug. ;)